P90X Journey: Day 31

Umm… okay, this morning my entire body turned traitor. I woke up and hour before my alarm and I had stomach pains that I had no clue where they were coming from. I had the urge to use the restroom but couldn’t and I was extremely tired and fatigued. THIS WAS TOO MUCH! I think my body is trying to get back into the swing of things after last week and I am just jumping right back into P90X like a week of sickness wasnt a big deal. My digestive track is crying out for attention and I have no reason why. I ate cereal this morning and was in so much pain I almost wanted to call out of work again. This has to get better. I am watching my diet closer too.

So, thankfully I only have to do Core Synergenics (sp) tonight. I was going to workout this morning but I honestly felt too fatigued to do it. WHich is sad because it would have been nice to get it out of the way. I also have to squeeze in a walk/run ont he treadmill at the gym tonight. Since I only have one P90X exercise to do I have to get back into the gym that I still pay my membership dues and havent visited since June. Shame, yet true. It can be an hour of just straight up walking for all I care, I just have to put my face back in that gym. If the pool wasnt so cold, I would go and hop in that and swim for a little bit. I may go sit in the steamroom. So yeh, that is what I may do tonight.  I may need to buy a little book light so that I can sit in the steam room and read for a little bit. Cant take my headphones in there so I may want to read to keep from falling asleep. So, P90X for an hour and the gym treadmill for 30mins (only b/c the gym wont let you keep it for longer than that) and probably the steam room or another cardio machine for another 30 mins. I think I am going to love tonight. Will keep you posted. Right now (11am) my pedometer says 2404 steps…..the day is young. I want to make it to 10,000 OUTSIDE of my workout today. I dont care what it takes, I will have to make 10,000 steps today even if it takes me marching in place…..that counts,right?

WORKOUT

Okay, soooooo This is going to turn into another blog all on its own, but I went home expecting for my ex to have plans for us to go out…strictly as friends. I felt I was being harsh on him for cutting him off and told him that he could earn my friendship back if he tried. He said he would keep his word ( which is why we aren’t together now…because that negro couldn’t keep his word if Jesus tatted it to his chest). So I got in the house and I ate to Red Hots (hot dogs) and I sat on the couch. My intuition tapped me and said, “Bitch, if you don’t get up and workout now I will sabotage your whole fitness goal. You know damn well this negro is not gonna keep his word.” I looked at the clock and it was 6:50. I didn’t even have time to let the food digest all that good, but I hopped into action and put on my workout clothes and popped in Core Synergistics because Plyometrics is too much for me.  I sweated and I fought back tears, every time I wanted to cry I just had to dig a little deeper. When the kicks came into play I felt like I was kicking him dead in his throat! I got down and did knee push-ups and wall push-ups but I kept it moving and wouldn’t stop. I didn’t do the bonus workouts because my emotions were getting the best of me. Actually, I don’t even think that I cooled down. I just got up and took a shower, then I came back and blocked his phone number and erased him from all of my social network pages. Felt good to do it but still didn’t make me feel any better. I was in bed by 9:30pm.

I am glad that I worked out before I got too upset and then I would have talked myself out of it. I think that I am learning to listen to my intuition and workout when I need to workout or suffer the consequences. These Doubles workouts I think are trying to my body but I will make it…. I have to make it under 220 by Dec 11th.  Next week I think I will do an all vegetarian diet but I wonder how much strength will I have to do these workouts. Who knows. I need to push, in a healthy way and make this work!!!!  Thanks for reading.

Drank a Pitcher of  Water? 1/2 of a pitcher

Close to the Diet today? Really, all I ate was cereal…my stomach had me scared to eat anything else

Completed Yoga in 1 day? N/A

Completed Ab Ripper X? N/A

Pedometer Steps: 7834/10,000

Worked out this Morning? 1/3wk no workout this morning

Treadmill or Walk/run: x/3wk

Took the stairs at work? 2x up and 1 time down already today (11am)

SIncerely,

~*My Mother’s Daughter*~

P90X Journey: Day 30

16 Nov 10

This Morning…… I hit snooze so many times that I think it may not work properly tomorrow. I just could not get out of bed as early as I would have liked. WOW!!!! Okay, so I finally got moving. I am going to do doubles just to put in some work in the 30 days leading up to my birthday cruise. I figure if I do the P90X Doubles then it should put things into overdrive. Lord only knows if this will actually work, but it can’t hurt. I only want to lose 10 lbs this month. Then I will be under my goal of 220 by the time I step foot on the cruise.

This morning I did Cardio X. I must admit that I wasnt doing it full-out. I was light-headed and dizzy & hungry. My stomach started to hurt and I had to stop one exercise before the cool down, but I made it. I have to figure out how to get enough energy in my system at night to last me through morning workouts. Will have to research, because I didn’t like that feeling at all. I drank a lot of water and hope to get through at least a pitcher by tonight.  Right now it is saying that I have 798 steps. I swear I stepped more than that…but again… it’s this janky pedometer. I was going to take the stairs this morning but a co-worker left her badge at home so I had to escort her via elevator because she wasnt going to take the stairs. lol. Shame.

Today really is like starting all over since I was sick last week. I have to get my mind back in the right spot and my body to get back healthy. Because it is still recovering from the infection. It sucks…. but I will get better. Okay… time for lunch.

WORKOUT

So, I came home and I dove right into the Chest, Back and Triceps DVD. I used my Iron Gym pull-up bar for push-ups like they say that you can…..man I felt that burn in my groin…lol. I tried to do it like a regular straight leg push up and my stomach clenched so hard I almost peed on myself so I went back to my knees. I have to use a pillow on my knees because of how hard my floor is and my floating patella still scare me. I have a fear I will be working out and my knee cap is gonna snap to the side like it use to back in high school. This morning my shoulders and back are BURNING!! DO you hear me?! BURNING!!!! I was proud of myself.

It was pretty rough getting back into the groove of things after having been sick for a week. Especially since this was my second workout of the day. I could have easily thrown in the towel and said I already worked out for the day and been cool with that. But I know better. I have all of these holiday meals and vacations dead smack in the middle of this Phase of 30 days and I have to put in the extra work just to pray that I stay even.  I can’t let anything stop me from getting below 220lbs. By the time I step on a plane on Dec 11th headed to Miami, I want the scale to say 219.9999999 lbs. I may not get on the plane if I don’t make that goal. I am dead ass serious! This is more than vanity to me, this is my life…the habits that I want to take with me from this day forward. I can’t go into my 30th birthday with a set-back. I have to go into it with a small victory that drives me & motivates me to keep moving forward. I already told my homegirl that I have to get up and hit the gym every day on the cruise. I have to. Sounds weird to say, but I can’t let my celebration set me back either. It will be less stressful than P90X but it will be SOMETHING!!! Then our walking around the different ports every day will help too. I just have to set up a plan and keep it moving. I also have to watch what I eat while on the ship. I can have a blast, but know what I am getting myself into & make wise decisions.

When Ab Ripper came on I sped through those exercises without the DVD…I had to go my pace without getting psyched out. But in the end I had to stop. I started to feel what I call the “drunken burp” where you feel like you have to burp but if you do something else might come up behind it. I felt real light-headed and nauseous so I had to call it quits to exercises before the end; the leg climber and the Mason twist. I had to know my limits. And I had reached them. I am typing this and forgot to bring my workout stats with me… but I will probably post them tomorrow so you can see what I did and/or how I did. Thanks for reading.

Daily Stats

Drank a Pitcher of  Water? 3/4 of a Brita water pitcher

Close to the Diet today? ummm… does the Chick-fil-a sandwich count

Completed Yoga in 1 day? N/A

Completed Ab Ripper X? Did all but the Leg climb & Mason Twist

Pedometer Steps: 5858/10,000

Worked out this Morning? YES!!! 1/3 for this wk

Treadmill or Walk/run: x/3wk

Took the stairs at work? NOPE

Sincerely,

~*My Mother’s Daughter*~

P90X Journey: Day 18

 

4 Nov 10

Yes, I know….DAY 18!!!!!!!!!!

Who knew that I could make it this far? I know for damn sure that I didn’t think that I could make it for 18 days straight. I honestly think that I am in for a treat since I am sticking to this. I really don’t think that I have that much of a noticeable physical change…well outter change. Like, yeh O lost some inches but it depends on how I stand, when I measure and yadda yadda yadda. My weight has gone down from 232 to 227.5 and that is good. But I honestly think that I still look the same. I know that I have 12 more days before I take my next pics, but a lot can and cannot happen in 12 days. I am just afraid that I will have done all of this hard work just to get the pics and look the same. Am I expecting to be a size 6 in a month? No, but I am looking for my stomach not to stick out as much as it did before I started.

I wish the internal changes could show. Like, how I actually like working out now, or how I understand the importance of stretching and ab control and am working to be better at it. How jumping jacks with these huge ass breasts don’t give me a black eye and a heart attack like they use to. Or how I consider each workout my own personal challenge that I can accomplish, and when it is complete, I am very proud of myself. This is what I wished showed in my before and After pics.

Well, I didn’t wake up and workout like I thought that I would. I went to bed TOO late after the movie screening and exercise that I really needed to stay my butt in bed for the entire day. I brought my lunch of chicken and broccoli to work…and yummm! I walked to get lunch with my co-worker and it was torture to stand in the buffet doorway and smell all of the wonderful foods that I use to partake in oh so long ago. It was amazing, though, to see the different combinations of food on people’s plates. The slimmer people were piling the salad and vegetables high and cutting the fish filets in half ( I have always wondered who in the hell does that!). While the more Boss Hog crowd was slamming three scoops of Mac & Cheese into containers that were big enough to feed those children on late night TV. I never once saw the Boss Hog crowd find their way to the vegetable table unless to drip dressing over a few chicken wings, and though exaggerated…..its not by much. I had survived the temptation ( with the help of leaving my debit card in the office) and I ate my healthy lunch and drank my water. Around the afternoon I started craving a soda….I fought the urge so hard that it wasnt even funny. My body wanted that beverage BAD!!!! But I wasnt ready to put on empty calories. So I went and got a snickers…..lol.But, I came home, watched When in Rome with one of my personal assistants/mentee and then I dreaded working out. I mean…it hit me that today was Yoga day! Yes, a damn Yoga day!!! I was procrastinating so much that I even played the disc on fast forward for her with my own fat girl commentary as if I were at the Hamburger Olympics! It was soooo hard for me to get up to take her home because I knew I had to workout when I returned.

Once back in the house, I knew that this was going to be the hardest 1.5 hours in my life. I mean really…. did Yoga really have to be this long?  It really was the 1.5 hour time frame that was throwing me off. In the car I had joked that I would turn the radio on in order to make it through….well…thats what I did. I turned on my favorite radio stations, WKYS 93.9 and I jammed out to Daija Perez with my back to the TV as he called out the poses. I was even tempted to tape the TV screen to cover the timer but just didnt look in that direction. There were times when I would glance at the screen but would block the timer corner with my hand just so I could see what move was next. It was not as bad as usual. Knowing the time ACTUALLY messes up my mental capacity to tell myself I can get through it. I have no clue why…. but it does. I made it through the first hour and then…by honest accident….I saw that I only had 34 minutes left. It was then that I was proud of myself.  It really did help to do downward dog to Keri Hilson’s Breaking Point or Warrior Pose to Jazmine Sullivan’s Count to 10. But nothing beats doing Tree to Michael Jackson’s Liberian Girl!!!!!! I was trying to stay still but my neck had to move in a snake-like fashion to feel the groove…and I still kept my balance! lol.  I learned that maybe I am missing out on the quietness of traditional Yoga, but maybe traditional Yoga isn’t for everyone. Maybe people need Country Yoga with Taylor Swift sending subliminal messages to Kanye in the background through twanged out mantras (Yummmmmmm). Or Rap Yoga with Gucci man teaching the class telling everyone to find their inner Buuuuuuuuur! I would prefer R&B/Neo-Soul Yoga…it connects well with my inner balance. Maybe I need to do it to instrumentals to take away the words and focus on the point of traditional Yoga….but this is what works for me to get the exercise done. And it was successful! I made it through the ENTIRE P90X Yoga X video for the first time EVER!!! The only time I stopped was on moves that I could not do; crane and side hold thingy with only one arm and one leg touching the floor.

So, it can be done. I will keep experimenting with this….especially since next week is my first recovery week and I saw Yoga twice….lol. But it felt good to accomplish something that I once hated tremendously and now I just dislike. lol.

SIncerely,

~*My Mother’s Daughter*~

P90X Journey: Day 16

 

I VOTED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! There…. end of blog. Today that is all that matters. lol

Okay, Well I got up this morning and I worked out for 30 minutes to Sean T’s Hip Hop Abs: Fat Burning Cardio. It felt good to get up and have the energy and the stamina to work through it. I was proud of myself. I did every step. I could remember when I use to have to take breaks in the middle of this workout, or when I needed an inhaler. I can hold my head high knowing that I need neither to finally make it through this workout.

I even had enough time to eat my Honey Bunches of Oats with Almonds & soy milk. That is my fav cereal and I cant remember the last time I actually sat down at my house and ate breakfast. I actually enjoyed it, relaxed and watched television. I dont think that I have EVER done that on a weekday.  So I got dressed and I headed to the polls. It was very empty when I got there, but I didnt mind, I voted and left out and headed to work and actually got there early.

For lunch I had a cheeseburger with fries and an extremely large cup of  lemonade, but I did frink water throughout the day. The lunch was free so I didnt mind that much. I just know that I have to put in work. Unfortunately my underwear feels tighter today. I know that is TMI, but I have no clue why my boyshorts are cutting off my circulation in my hip/groin socket. Bananas, right? I mean… it is painful. It is enough to make a woman want to free-labia it ( free ballin was genetically not an option). I guess I could have said Captain Commandora. lol. Maybe my thigh muscles are getting bigger or my butt is lifting into place. WHo knows! I just had to share that.

I also have to share why I am writing this blog. I am writing so that when I get to the other side of this journey I can remember. I can have evidence of my struggle. I dont want to be a fitness buff who makes everyone who has yet to accomplish what it is that I worked so hard to get feel as if it was a walk in the park. I want to hold myself accountable. I want to make sure that I never forget where I have been and how it felt to be here. I love me, but my current physical form is NOT me… it is where I happen to be right now. And I am okay with that…for now. Hence why I am working it out so hard.

I was going to walk right into the house and start Plyometric (spell check) but then my TV was on the movie JACK and I had to sit and watch because I had never seen it before.So, it goes off in like 5 minutes and then I will begin to workout. I’ll tell you all about it. I have never done Plyometrics before……I am actually scared. Feeling the pain of the Chest & Back workout yesterday but again… proud that I finished! Okay…. time to put on the shoes. BRING IT TIME!

Workout

WTF is PLYOMETRICS and who pissed off the Roman Gods?!!!! I was all happy that I could keep up with the warm ups. But not too long there after did I contemplate switching back to Cardio X. I should have known something was up with the one-legged P90X graduate showed up. Yep, made me feel like crap when he was hopping around all perfect and I was about to pass the hell out. I understand equal rights,but they just mind fucked my emotional status.  I’m too fat to out hop a one-legged guy! How do you come back from not being able to out hop Tink Tink?!

My legs were fine for the first couple of squats, and then  my knee caps started popping and I knew that i was headed down hill from there. The ski moves I was cool with until they added the 180 turns. I couldn’t squat on those so I just stayed up and did 180 and I found that to be just as challenging, noted by the sweat in my eyes. I also couldn’t do the rock star. My weight is currently too heavy for me to have faith in lifting both knees up like that. I know because I tried it and the way I landed felt like one of my knees were going to give out on me. Scared the living daylights out of me. So two-legged jumps are currently out of the question. Also, I felt weird with the squat jumping jacks. My legs were clapping to a hip hop beat that was being formulated by the gaps in slaps. I mean, they were slapping so hard I felt like tipping my own crotch! Seriously, you would have thought that a ghetto stripper was in my house mocking me. Having made my point… I’ll move on.

All and all this was challenging and I did the modified version. I’m sitting on my couch after just getting out of the shower and I am still wiping sweat.  My only problem with P90X and I have been meaning to write this for a while, is that they assume I know what the fuck they are talking about. Meaning, if this is my first time turning on a disc, yelling out MILITARY MARCHES and then beginning the clock and movement is retarded. I shouldnt have to constantly pause my DVD because they failed to show me what the move is. I also have this problem with the modified person, they never show what they are doing until halfway through the countdown or at the very end. If you are going to have a modified person, show the modified move before hand so that we can be in sync with the movement. Its like they forgot about us when it comes to this. I actually get pissed off every time they start a new move and I have to miss a rep or two to catch on to what the hell they are doing. But this could be me and the fact that I ate broccoli for dinner and my bodily functions are executing treason and I have to sit amongst it. TMI? Welcome to my UNCENSORED blog.

I noticed a lot about my body today. When I tighten my abs, I cant breath. I walk around with my shoulders up by my ears and I seldom notice until my neck and shoulders start to hurt. I get cramps in the arch of my foot every time I jump and I have no clue how to fix this. My legs being uneven ( for whatever reason) is really effecting a lot of my performance, causing me to do a lot of modified versions, and my sciatica is a gift from satan’s spawn. But I will prevail. This is just my current feedback. Soon I will have more and better complaints as I progress to my fitness goal. I want to be able to jog the MS Walk/Run full 3 miles in March,I want to be able to walk into Rave, LVLX, or Shoe City and buy clothing without people wondering if I am on crack or pray that I am purchasing it as a gift for someone worthy of not making the seams commit suicide. I want to start my own dance crew and be able to choreograph some awesome routines like I use to a few years ago. I know that I can do these things….and I will. I am learning to be patient.

In closing, I know you are wondering about my steps ( I doubt it but the sentence set-up sounded literary)….my pedometer is on crack and I need to buy another one. I also get happy when I step on the scale at night after I’ve eaten all day and it weighs less than the day before. Yesterday my scale said 228.5 in the morning on an empty scale, and tonight it said 227.5. I’m excited just to see my scale say that number. Now… if by Friday it can say 225.5……I’ll stop call Nicki Minaj a Bitch….on twitter.Ok…timeforbed.I have to get up in the morning.

Sincerely,

~*My Mother’s Daughter*~

P90X Journey: Day 7 and 8

24 Oct 20

So Day 7 came as a blessing. I had an opportunity to rest after a week of breakdowns and breakthroughs. It also brought forth an opportunity for my body to start feeling the pain of the work that I put in. I went to church in the morning, then I went to a ghetto hair show, and then I went out for sake & sushi with two of my coolest divas. It wasnt until around 9:30pm that my muscles started to tighten on me. I was good until this tightness kicked in. It was bitter-sweet. It was good to know that I put the work in but then I was in pain if I moved too quickly.

All in all, before I went to sleep I was trying to figure out how I was going to workout today. I have to work and host a show tonight. I am also extremely tired and I just want rest. So, I will have to workout when I get home tonight around 11pm.

25 Oct 10

Day 8 is under way. I ate Chicken Pad Thai from Noodle’s and Co for lunch…and I think that I will have a Salmon Caesar Salad for dinner. I really just want to go to my truck and sleep for an hour before I host, just so I can have enough energy to workout, but I will struggle through and crash after I exercise. Woooooh sah. SO yeh, stay tuned for the workout… I have no clue what disc is the disc for today. I think Core Synergenics (sp) is today. Okay… more later….zzzzzzzz

Okay, so after work I hosted my poetry show and it was amazing. I found a short burst of energy and the crowd issued it right back at me. That is all that a host could ask for. But then as I was leaving, around 10pm, I realized that I had a 30 minute drive ahead of me and man was I exhausted. I had surpassed tired the moment I woke up yesterday morning. I had no clue how I was going to workout. I started negotiating with myself. I even concocted the idea that it would be okay for me to doubt up on Day 9 to make up for the missed Day 8 routine. The walk up my steep driveway in complete darkness was like walking the green mile and your mother was at the top of the hill with a belt in her hand.

I walked in the house and I started stripping articles of work clothing off and immediately put on my workout clothes. I couldn’t sit down because that would have been the end of it all. I was already cussing at the TV before it was even beginning the workout. I did movements and made it through the workout, stopping just before the Bonus stuff. I couldn’t do it. I finally felt the strain of trying to workout without rest. It is seemingly pointless. I didnt have the drive. I was doing the moves and holding in my core, but at one part in the routine I just felt like I was going to topple over and be done. I wont EVER workout exhausted ever again in my life.

Again, I realize that my cardio fitness levels are improving, I just can’t wait to feel the strength portion of this. I cant do the jumping from side to side with both legs together YET, but I was still moving. I know that I can make it.

A co-worker told me there are phases to get over. He said the beginners phase is the getting started portion and I made it through that. Next is the pain phase where the muscles have figured out what I am doing ….I am currently here. Then you will run into the boredom phase, he said if you can make it through this phase then you will workout from then on out. So now that I know I can be mentally ready for this. I just have to make sure that I stay on my diet. Last night I had a salmon caesar salad.  I just want to be 20lbs lighter by December 11th.  It can happen… I just need to stay focused and committed. *Drinks Smart Water* Yeh…. I can do it.

Total steps on Pedometer: 14410

Sincerely,

~*My Mother’s Daughter*~