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In Take 2: Film/TV Reviews, Writer's Block on 1 March 2013 at 2:44 pm
Over the past couple of days I have been home sick with a stomach virus. But nothing, and I mean absolutely NOTHING, has made me so sick to my stomach as this:

Can someone please tell me, since when has domestic violence become the root of jokes? Since when has it become okay for us to meme an act of violence. Bad enough Worldstar Hip-Hop has become synonymous with ratchedness and violence, but now we make jokes about domestic violence?
Now, before I swing my leg completely over this high horse I am going to side-saddle for a moment and touch on the double standards. Yes, Chris Brown did plead guilty to hitting her. So yes, I am all for videos of him getting his ass whooped. What? He was the man who hit a woman ( FOR WHATEVER REASON) and he should be hit back. Now, on the flip side of things…. I wasn’t in the car. Rihanna could have provoked him. But in the end, all I have to go by is her face in the photos and his plea in court. Rest my case. :::swings leg over high horse:: Read the rest of this entry »
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In Take 2: Film/TV Reviews on 30 March 2011 at 1:57 am

Pre-Season 4 Recap: Dont Call It a Comeback Pt1
Episode 1: Don’t Call It a Come Back Pt2
Episode 2: The Game
Episode 3: Derwin’s Got Some ‘splaining To Do
Episode 4: The Game~ Worth Watching?
Episode 5: What Now?
Episode 6: Won’t Call it a Comeback
Episode 7: Kill Kelly
Episode 8: BEST Episode Ever!
Episode 9: What The Hell Happened?
Episode 10: The Redemption
Episode 11: Baby, Baby Please
Okay, sooooo I am running soooo late!!! I had to host tonight and Eboni is here in my room with me about to watch the Season Finale of The Game at 1am. Yes, DVR it is… and I have not looked at Twitter or Facebook the entire night because I didn’t want to have to kill anyone for spoiling it for me.
I could speculate, but I wont. I just want to watch the show and hope that it leaves enough suspense to get me to come back next season but closes up enough information that leaves me satisfied for this season. All I want to know is ….who is the mystery person they have been showing on the commercials? Hmmm.. .okay, enough questions.
Take 2 in 5, 4, 3, 2, 1, …. #GameOn , Bitches!
Okay, so I happened to watch the episode beginning that i missed last week while @abmoore20 was here. Wow… Mario Van Peebles’ body looks good as hell. But his explanation of his disease *side eye*. But…..on to the Finale.
Okay, why is this my FIRST time hearing the football players collide on the intro? Man, I’ve been slipping. But…the opening with Melanie & Derwin talking baby talk again….I just want to watch this on fast forward. I mean…. can we get the pacing of a scene correct. It started off so slow. It didn’t take all that time to place “Loving You” in the background and get out a few words. *sigh* okay….next.
Soooooo I am sooooo confused. Tasha is making her situation with Bo seem like she was with him for months. Can we please not test the intelligence level of my willing suspense of disbelief. You found him, dated him, and killed him all in one episode. Now she is talking about him like Bo was the love of her life. *See this face……..*tilted smirk* WAIT!!!!
Did Bo just walk up to Tasha…wait….this is a set-up! I called it in the last episode!!!! This negro isn’t dying!!!! His name is Ronnie?! But you can’t make me believe that TASHA DIDNT KIRK OUT!!! Hell to the nawl!!!! He wouldn’t have gotten away with it that easily… again… don’t test my intelligence.
Okay, isnt this the SAME exact studio where they opened the season with the Derwin/Melanie Essence photo shoot? They couldn’t afford another backdrop? Didnt these bitches know that I would be watching? And yes, I know that this was filmed ages ago, but they should know that assholes like me exist. hahahahah Malik set up a fake ass photo shoot just to get Jenna back? WOWZERS!!! Okay.. Hosea… my address is 2504 I Saw Your Nude Pics Ave. Now, can you set up a fake photo shoot for me too? I’ll wait. Nothing says lovin’ like stalking a bitch via a fake photo shoot that you paid for. lol
WHO IS THIS DUDE?!!!!!!!!!!! The new QB, Kirkland, for the Sabers….*licks lips*…..*exhales* I will press rewind to get his name. Now, if you will make him a permanent member of this cast, then you can make each episode as slow as hell and I could care less.
Umm… this fight between Melanie and Tasha is bordering hilarious. I can’t focus. Hell, even Eboni just said she can’t focus on the scene because she can see both of their bras through their shirts……sad. I swear I am trying to get it, but I can’t. It is so contrived. Yes, I get it…. you want your man to be represented. And yes, there was a better way for her to ask Tasha….but really. To get all upset with your girl when a negro faked his own death , kids, and marriage and you didn’t so much as raise an eyebrow? Get the fuck out of here. What about not sweating the small stuff. Hell, I was going to sweat the small stuff and ask why is the season finale only 30 minutes, but I don’t know if I could take more than this. *sigh*. Okay…. they at least get to come back next season and fix it.
SNAP!!! If i were a Lesbian, I am pretty sure that the looks I just gave Stacy Dash could be constituted as distant rape. It makes no sense for a woman her age to look 10 times better than me. WAIT!! It’s not fair for Stacy to get the new dude!!! *Sigh* I don’t know who to stalk first… Stacy or Kirkland.
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!! Jenna didn’t go back on the crack.
Wait… I am soooooo uncomfortable knowing that Derwin brought his own sexual stimulants to a birth clinic. OH MY GOD!!!!! Melanie had an abortion?!!! Was it Troy, Trevor…shit the dude she slept with after she broke up with Derwin!! You know, the football dude’s baby. The one in last season who told her that he would pay for her tuition. I don’t think that it was Derwin’s Baby.
Conclusion: Ummmmm. Whack way to end the season. I mean, stuff was left dangling, the episode moved so slowly and it was too dramatic. I had to rewind the show twice to catch that the ONLY way Derwin was able to tell that Melanie had an abortion was because she said “definitely”. Had Tasha not called her “definitely” lying phrase out in the scene before, I would have never caught it. Oh wait…. maybe it was Eggs’ baby…you know, Mehcad Brooks from True Blood. *Sighs* soooo many options. But I don’t like the way the abortion came up. It wasnt there EVER!!! Dont spring a secret on me in the same episode. The actor should react a certain way to babies and other things if this is in fact her back story. I am not happy with the conclusion of the Jenna/Malik storyline. Okay, so Tasha is not doing any better. *sigh* The only person who was consistent throughout the entire season was Jason/Colby. Okay….. Writers, please go spend some time together, watch the previous seasons, and study them.We want that believability back. We want the comedy back. We want the charisma back. I have no clue what happened, but we are just going to blame it on the fact that you were gone for 2 years. So yeh, I’ll be praying for your return. I know you can do better.
Sincerely,
~*My Mother’s Daughter*~
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In Take 2: Film/TV Reviews on 23 March 2011 at 12:02 am

Pre-Season 4 Recap: Dont Call It a Comeback Pt1
Episode 1: Don’t Call It a Come Back Pt2
Episode 2: The Game
Episode 3: Derwin’s Got Some ‘splaining To Do
Episode 4: The Game~ Worth Watching?
Episode 5: What Now?
Episode 6: Won’t Call it a Comeback
Episode 7: Kill Kelly
Episode 8: BEST Episode Ever!
Episode 9: What The Hell Happened?
Episode 10: The Redemption
Okay… here we are… sitting on my couch laughing my ass off with @abmoore20 and I almost missed the opening to The Game. I think I did miss the opening of The Game… Noooooooo. What is Mario Van Peebles dying from? I missed it.
Okay, so now Melanie is trying to keep this lie going? I am sooooo disturbed by this.
Okay…. I know I am late, but you must understand when I tell you that I am unable to keep focused on this whole episode. After learning of Hosea’s naked pics… watching him lay in bed brings soooooo many kinky visions to mind. I am trying to stay focused on Malik… but I can’t. The brother is hung like drapes dangling from the top of the Eiffel Tower to the ground.
Ummmm… how is Tasha walking up in people’s houses? I mean wow…dont people lock their doors in gated communities? Did Melanie just tell Tasha she was being boinked Buddhist… lmao. LMFALS!!! Did Tasha just correct her wig…lmao!!! I can’t get past that…lol. I am dying laughing soooo hard! hahahahaha.
Okay.. so when did Tasha meet Bo? Is that his name(Mario Van Peebles)? Because didn’t she JUST officially break up with Donte? I’m so confused. How much of a gap is this suppose to be from the last episode? Okay, so obviously i was laughing too hard and missed the intro, but @abmoore20 just told me that he saw Mario walk up to her at the party…. confused. Yeh, gonna need to watch the rerun in order to capture my head around this. I need cliff notes… something. Someone please, help me out.
Okay, so, Malik in the office of the owner allowing Derwin to beg on his behalf….I am not getting that. Especially how Parker’s picture is still on her husband’s desk. I mean, Derwin needed to hush when asked if he had a wife. Derwin cheated on Melanie so he should not say shiiiiiiit. And Malik should not get upset because he did all of this for himself.
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! Keith Sweat did NOT just walk into the room. LMAO!!! Wowzers. Okay, did Keith just say Jim-balaya? Isnt it jambalaya? HELL NAWL!!! Tasha didn’t say “cap ’em and deal ’em” instead of carpe diem!!!! And now Tasha is giving up the goodies to a dying man… shame. Wait, where did Keith go? I’m so confused. @abmoore20 is not allowed over my house to watch these shows… I cant focus because he keeps me laughing. I love my mentee….not that you care. lmao!
Okay… as this commercial break is going on… I don’t think that Mario Van Peebles is dying. I think he is also married and this is something that he tells innocent women to get them to speed up the process. Besides, we all know that black people don’t go to doctors and when we do we don’t believe a word of what they have to say. We believe in the LAWD & when he says its time for us to go home. Am I right? Can I get a witness!!*@abmoore20 says: Hallelu!” *passes collection plate & cues the ushers*
LMAO!!! Melanie went to Brazil….lol. That was a funny way to say she Waxed on, waxed off her va-jay-jay…lmao. And I feel all kinky watching Melanie and Derwin almost getting kinky. Wait….. Niiiiiiiiiiiice buttcrack shot, Derwin. #TeamPoochHall’s Ass! I wonder if they wrote in Melanie being pregnant because Tia is pregnant in real life? Hmmmm.
Oh wow… Tasha even gets left alone after having one night stands from dying dudes. I am soooo confused about her entire situation. Hell, Rick Fox was the closest that we saw her to being happy. I hope that Malik is calling Jenna…. wait.. he called his mom? Confused, but okay, I get it.
NEXT WEEK!!! Okay, I love how they set this up, the finale… I mean. I pray that it is not a let down. Wow… okay I will have to make sure to watch. It is too juicy. I hate that they allude to Jenna not giving Malik a 2nd chance… boo , hiss! Okay, time to watch this boring ass show that comes on after it. Watch and suffer with me! [insert link here to Let’s Not Stay Together]
Sincerely,
~*My Mother’s Daughter*~
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In Take 2: Film/TV Reviews on 16 March 2011 at 12:02 am

Pre-Season 4 Recap: Dont Call It a Comeback Pt1
Recap Episode 1: Don’t Call It a Come Back Pt2
Recap Episode 2: The Game
Recap Episode 3: Derwin’s Got Some ‘splaining To Do
Episode 4: The Game~ Worth Watching?
Episode 5: What Now?
Episode 6: Won’t Call it a Comeback
Episode 7: Kill Kelly
Episode 8: BEST Episode Ever!
Episode 9: What The Hell Happened?
Okay… a recap of my day is so more interesting than last week’s episode.
Not that you care, and not that I care that you don’t care, but I had one of the busiest days of my life. Sweet heavens. I went to work and immediately wrote a to-do list just so that I could make sure that I didn’t forget anything. I mean, between the production company, the script, the web series, poetry, slam, and breathing……I had to scream out for help to my BFF and my personal assistant. *woosah* I do faaaaaar too much and need to know which battles to fight, when to say no, and obtain better time management skills. I even had to have a lunch date with my boo just so I could see him this week…lmao. Sad, yet true. So, I just finished my radio interview (Thanks DJ Gemz)….and I made home in time to fold clothes and get ready for my maid to come in the morning. And now I am all ready for you. Yes, I’m here for you.
So if you missed last week, or any week for that matter, click on the links above and get to reading.
Take 2 in 5, 4, 3, 2, 2, 2,….. #GameOn , Bitches!
Damn…. all of these hoes. Okay, let me stop being a hypocrite….I would dance for Malik ( Hosea). And awwwwww, Malik said that Jenna is his Jada. And I hope this episode gets better because this opening is as slow as Hugh Heffner running through the Playboy mansion. *yawn* Come on…. don’t make me do it! I will “Let’s Stay Together” you…. I will!!!!!
AAAAAAAAAH!!! My inner fat girl jumped the fuck up out this bed and then knocked the soda out my own damn hands when Tasha was working out to P90X on the couch! Lmao! I havent worked out to those discs since before I went on my cruise in December. And I would still have dust on them but my maid cleaned them off….lol.
Now is the time for me to admit that I am not really feeling TT’s acting. Somehow it managed to work when he was silent.
And damn! Parker is on some Crazy, Deraaaaaanged type shit. I mean, really, girl… is Malik carrying the magic stick that created the magic stick? Because I can’t see AAAAAAAAAANY man laying pipe enough to make me stalk him. Okay… there was this one time at band camp…. No, there was this Chocolate Dude….noooooo there was the…. Wait. Get out my business. Back to the story…… She is sitting in his car in the parking lot to his practice stadium. She is not even trying to be discrete any more, she is just buck crazy kind of bold. Shame.
Okay, Tasha could have told everyone that Dontae was going out of town….but noooooooooo. She’s planning this party with Melanie for someone who she broke up with weeks before.
DAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAMN!!! Parker’s husband just called her a $2 Hooker! Okay. I get it! Abused, Craaaazy, Dereaaanged!!! Okay, so she needed Malik’s magic stick.
Wait!!! DONTAE JUST MADE THIS SHOW INTERESTING AS HELL!!!!!!! He showed up, but who in the hell told him that his party was going on? Hmmm…. Awwwww Dontae is being so sweet and romantic.
AND MALIK IS ABOUT TO FUCK IT UP!!!!! DON’T GO HAVE SEX WITH PARKER IN THE BATHROOM!!!! Nooooooooooooooooooooo! Stay with Jenna. She’s not stupid. Okay…. False alarm. But I have a feeling Malik is about to get caught in 5, 4, 3, 2, ……2……2…..Malik’s bathroom therapy session to tell Parker her worth….2……2…. (I bet Parker is going to snitch on them…to get back at her husband)….2….2….2….2… OH SHIT!!!! Jenna just walked into the girl’s stall after Parker left and Malik just played it off. I bet you the mess is going on outside of that bathroom…..and his confessing that he is in love with Jenna is not going to make this mess any softer.
WTF?!!!A Commercial?
Okay… they made it out of the hotel and there is Parker and her husband….BAM!!!! You mean to tell me that Jenna only HEARD that Parker and Malik had sex and she walked off? Come on now. I thought that Jenna was better than that. In all seriousness, Jenna and Malik have only been together for a few weeks. So this could have been before he went to rehab. I just lost faith in Jenna… if she doesn’t come back she can keep her faithless ass off the show!
MESSAGE!: Black ladies… yes, he did sleep with Parker while he was with Jenna, but Jenna needed to ask Malik what she was talking about. To ask for clarification. I don’t think you understand just how upset I am right now! I was really rooting for Malik & Jenna….shame… black love just can’t prevail, now can it. And wow!
So, Malik’s Rick Ross of a bodyguard is allowed to bring a gun, pop it off 3 times and get to stand there in *country music voice* Wiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiide Open Spaces!? Come on now…. Make me believe that this isn’t going to be a Shine Part 2. He could have come and taken one of the Owner’s side men who were jumping Malik. But really….smh. Stereotypes.
Okay…. So I can’t remember what next week alludes too, but I never do so nothing new….lol. But, I have to admit…the pace was slow, but it was very interesting and full of surprises, though unbelievable. Okay, so beside the ghetto friends, bitter black woman exits, and psycho jump-offs….this episode did redeem itself from last week’s episode. I give this episode a B+. Not what I was expecting… but better than what you gave me last week. And scene!
Sincerely,
~*My Mother’s Daughter*~
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In Writer's Block on 23 November 2010 at 11:44 am

One of my mottos is that “The best compliment that you could ever give truth is a mirror” and I think I now have a tangible source of evidence to prove exactly what I meant by that. Someone thought that one of my poems touched them in such a manner that they would write a “reply” poem for the other demographic that was not captured in my original poem. It is powerful, it is humbling, and it is beautiful. It puts a different spin on what my poem was created for, it makes me understand my original poem better, and it makes me feel as if I have to work harder to make the reality of my words available for the lips of those who feel as if they cant speak those words on their own. My eyes are open now…. as well as my ears, and I am able to receive hope better because of this “reply” poem.
Domestic Violence is a topic that is very close to my heart. Someone very close to me was/is in the midst of it and no matter what you try to do….it is their battle. It is a lesson of letting go and waiting. One of the most painful things is to be helpless and hopeless and pray that they will come to their own self-worth and respect before it is too late. So a few years ago, when I got the news of this abusive situation, I vented to a then friend and the topic for the poem came to life. She said that if a guy ever beat her he would be DOA before anyone could ever revive him at the hospital. I joked and said that he would be D.O.C….. and the poem was born. Here is my poem D.O.C.
“D.O.C”
(by 2Deep)
Your honor
In the case of The State vs. 2Deep The Poetess
I,
The justified assailant
Would like to plead the newly instated charge of Premeditated Self-Defense
Because as a child,
I made up my mind that no man was ever going to lay his hands on me
So after several chick flicks
And watching self-defense workout tapes to Dixie Chicks’ “Earl’s Gotta Die”
I deemed myself fully equipped to handle any man who THOUGHT that he was bold enough to threaten my self-preservation
So I present to you, Exhibit A
I present to you…
His Death Certificate
Yes, sir
That is correct
D.O.C. stands for Dead on Contact
Because he was letting me know of his impending suicide
Through traditional methods of homicide
The moment that his person violently met with my person
So that time of death you see stated there, Your Honor,
Is the moment in which his hand actually touched me
Because the moments following that,
Which actually lead to his last breath,
Were merely inconsequential
Now I present to you Exhibit B
This the map with the exact longitude and latitude
Give or take a stomp or two
Of where his sorry ass now resides
I told his mother,
“Don’t thank me for saving you on funeral costs
Just fix the heel on my boot,
patch up the hole in my floor
And get every female in your family’s tubes tied
So that no one else
Will ever have to suffer from another sorry excuse of an XY chromosome every again.”
And, Your Honor,
I know that this looks like murder
But I promise you it was self-defense
Premeditated?
Yes!
But only because I know my self-worth
But self-defense never the less
And if he were alive today
He, too, would tell you that he didn’t think I could defend myself so well
So I think that my punishment should be to get in a relationship with another sorry ass bastard
Because I will not waste tax payer dollars by filing police reports
Nor will I waste precious emergency room pace
Because you see, I live by a 2-Hit-Die Rule
You hit me
You hit the floor
You die
I am unselfish in this matter, Your Honor
Because there are women out there who need me
And if they can’t have me
They at least need to have my self-esteem
Because there’s not a creation created on this Earth bad enough to put his hands on me
EXCEPT for the devil
And even he’s smart enough to send dumbasses like this to do his dirty work
And we see how that turned out
So I guess that now’s the time for me to admit
That, yes, Sleep & I are having an affair on the side
Therefore, I will not stay up late at nights nursing bruises while he gets to sleep soundly
Nor will I try to figure out what it is that I did or did not do today that caused him to lay his hands on me
So no, Your Honor
I will not apologize for him thinking of me as a victim & me rising as a victor
But I am sorry that his damn daddy didn’t teach him who not to put his fucking hands on
SO, Your Honor, much like that motherfucker who misjudged me
I rest!
For years people have laughed at the “2-Hit-Die Rule” while others have thanked me for bringing life to the topic in such a comedic manner. Either way, people have enjoyed it. I think it spreads a message. And several times I look out into the audience and I see the women nodding and agreeing with me aloud, but I also see one or two women who are either glancing at their men or are very non-responsive to the poem. I always wondered why that is but never put much thought into it. That was my fault…. my shortcoming to not explore.
But when one door closes, another door opens. My window of opportunity came in the form of an amazing poet; Katie Russo. Katie is an amazing teacher, journalist, poet and an overall amazing person. I met her a year ago at one of my poetry shows that I host and she has been a beacon of light amongst the darker side of this business. She asked about slam and wanted to find out the inner workers. She emailed me requesting information, wanted to know more spots where she could hear other poets, and she yearned to soak up as much information that I was willing to provide her. She wanted to study it and perfect her craft, and I honestly respected every aspect of her work ethic, so it would be no surprise that I would continue to respect her efforts in honoring my poem, D.O.C.
Last night she was my featured artist at the open mic I hosted. I was so excited!!!! She revealed to me that she had a reply poem for the other side of my poem. She asked me to introduce her set by doing D.O.C. so that the crowd could see both sides of the spectrum, and I obliged. It was my honor to do so. And as she reaches the mic she begins to perform her poem, Conviction:
Conviction-
(by Katherine Russo)
You say it with such conviction,
your syllables drip with perfect diction,
You say you’ll never let a man put you in that position,
and I begin to blush
sink back into the green cushion booth
wooden table,
pen to paper,
ashamed to write this truth,
that I do wish that I could be like you.
I know what I used to see when I looked at me;
a palatable acoustic youth.
So unaware that well paid white guys could be abusive too.
I never knew when I saw his blue eyes
heard his jokes,
listened to him talk about my red hair
and offer me a smoke
that his fists were capable of anything other than
boxing,
his favorite hobby.
I thought the only time I’d see him swing
was in pursuit of muscled body;
I was mistaken.
Clenched fists didn’t just exist hunched over a computer
data computing
disgusting to me how I thought I was worth muting
because abuse didn’t look like him
and it certainly didn’t look like me
and these bruises that I have are the result of too much free
I said too much,
he drank too much,
someone hit someone but I’m the only one bruised because,
well,
I hit like a girl.
And girls like me are above things like these
so silently I ignored what’s so painfully obvious to see;
that I spent too many nights adorning bourbon soaked bruises in afternoons meant to be mornings
that I refused to see every road sign,
flashing light telling me to run from this place id come to be,
because I let someone take over all my common sense
and then devour me.
But then I remembered,
there was a time when I spoke with like conviction
my syllables steeped in perfect diction
I said I’d never let a man put me in that position,
and now in what feels like twisted fiction I have come to speak the truth;
until I met him,
turned into her
I was; Just. Like. You.
Silence! She had performed the crowd into a trance. All I could do was nod my head and say, “Wow”. Even her boyfriend, who was supposed to record the performance, had forgotten to even turn the camera on. She was amazing. I had to confess that I think she out-wrote me! Her style, cadence and ability to draw a picturesque emotion is unbelievable.
She mentioned how my somewhat mentoring her int his poetry field has helped her “write to speak” skills and her “write to read” skills as well. I am honored… but I think …no, I KNOW, she had the skills all along…I just may have given her an avenue to express them to where people could hear them. I take no other credit than giving her a stage….she is naturally skilled.
I am humbled, that she would write a reply piece to my poem. Yet, I am also sadden that I never thought about the women who have YET to capture the courage that drips from my poem. I’m glad someone was able to do so. But i think that this poem speaks to more than just abuse…there is more here. I think there is a huge part of this poem that speaks to the judgmental person who screams they would never do something and then by twist of fate are forced to do exactly what they said they would never do. Here lies the truth that we all hide, cover with MAC and blame on self-propelled kitchen cabinets and loose stair railings. It makes you face your own issues and remember a time when you thought you were strong and long for the days when you can be again.
One of the strongest lines, to me, is “disgusting to me how I thought I was worth muting”; it screamed at me. As much as I talk…trust me I talk a lot. There are times when I feel like I should be hushed just because someone else said I should be or made attempts to hush me. Long story… but just know that it spoke to me. And I thank her for shaking that part of my conscience awake from its denial.
So between this poem and another poem by a good friend of mine…. I was in tears and deep thought last night. It was an amazing night of poetry and I was glad that I had an opportunity to witness it all, to be int he presence of such amazing company and to be honored by such an amazing poet. There is more wonderful things coming from Katie Russo…..I bet my pension on that. I am just blessed to be in her presence and to watch her work, to trust me with pieces of her journey and to have her give feedback of my work. I am inspired to write today because of her…..and that takes a lot of magic. She has the magic to make me put pen to paper and create in honor of her inspiration. Google her!!! Like Kom Plex says, she’s “googleable” lol.
Sincerely,
~*My Mother’s Daughter*~
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