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P90X Journey: Day 31

In P90X Journey on 18 November 2010 at 9:44 am

Umm… okay, this morning my entire body turned traitor. I woke up and hour before my alarm and I had stomach pains that I had no clue where they were coming from. I had the urge to use the restroom but couldn’t and I was extremely tired and fatigued. THIS WAS TOO MUCH! I think my body is trying to get back into the swing of things after last week and I am just jumping right back into P90X like a week of sickness wasnt a big deal. My digestive track is crying out for attention and I have no reason why. I ate cereal this morning and was in so much pain I almost wanted to call out of work again. This has to get better. I am watching my diet closer too.

So, thankfully I only have to do Core Synergenics (sp) tonight. I was going to workout this morning but I honestly felt too fatigued to do it. WHich is sad because it would have been nice to get it out of the way. I also have to squeeze in a walk/run ont he treadmill at the gym tonight. Since I only have one P90X exercise to do I have to get back into the gym that I still pay my membership dues and havent visited since June. Shame, yet true. It can be an hour of just straight up walking for all I care, I just have to put my face back in that gym. If the pool wasnt so cold, I would go and hop in that and swim for a little bit. I may go sit in the steamroom. So yeh, that is what I may do tonight.  I may need to buy a little book light so that I can sit in the steam room and read for a little bit. Cant take my headphones in there so I may want to read to keep from falling asleep. So, P90X for an hour and the gym treadmill for 30mins (only b/c the gym wont let you keep it for longer than that) and probably the steam room or another cardio machine for another 30 mins. I think I am going to love tonight. Will keep you posted. Right now (11am) my pedometer says 2404 steps…..the day is young. I want to make it to 10,000 OUTSIDE of my workout today. I dont care what it takes, I will have to make 10,000 steps today even if it takes me marching in place…..that counts,right?

WORKOUT

Okay, soooooo This is going to turn into another blog all on its own, but I went home expecting for my ex to have plans for us to go out…strictly as friends. I felt I was being harsh on him for cutting him off and told him that he could earn my friendship back if he tried. He said he would keep his word ( which is why we aren’t together now…because that negro couldn’t keep his word if Jesus tatted it to his chest). So I got in the house and I ate to Red Hots (hot dogs) and I sat on the couch. My intuition tapped me and said, “Bitch, if you don’t get up and workout now I will sabotage your whole fitness goal. You know damn well this negro is not gonna keep his word.” I looked at the clock and it was 6:50. I didn’t even have time to let the food digest all that good, but I hopped into action and put on my workout clothes and popped in Core Synergistics because Plyometrics is too much for me.  I sweated and I fought back tears, every time I wanted to cry I just had to dig a little deeper. When the kicks came into play I felt like I was kicking him dead in his throat! I got down and did knee push-ups and wall push-ups but I kept it moving and wouldn’t stop. I didn’t do the bonus workouts because my emotions were getting the best of me. Actually, I don’t even think that I cooled down. I just got up and took a shower, then I came back and blocked his phone number and erased him from all of my social network pages. Felt good to do it but still didn’t make me feel any better. I was in bed by 9:30pm.

I am glad that I worked out before I got too upset and then I would have talked myself out of it. I think that I am learning to listen to my intuition and workout when I need to workout or suffer the consequences. These Doubles workouts I think are trying to my body but I will make it…. I have to make it under 220 by Dec 11th.  Next week I think I will do an all vegetarian diet but I wonder how much strength will I have to do these workouts. Who knows. I need to push, in a healthy way and make this work!!!!  Thanks for reading.

Drank a Pitcher of  Water? 1/2 of a pitcher

Close to the Diet today? Really, all I ate was cereal…my stomach had me scared to eat anything else

Completed Yoga in 1 day? N/A

Completed Ab Ripper X? N/A

Pedometer Steps: 7834/10,000

Worked out this Morning? 1/3wk no workout this morning

Treadmill or Walk/run: x/3wk

Took the stairs at work? 2x up and 1 time down already today (11am)

SIncerely,

~*My Mother’s Daughter*~

P90X Journey: Day 18

In P90X Journey on 5 November 2010 at 12:08 pm

 

4 Nov 10

Yes, I know….DAY 18!!!!!!!!!!

Who knew that I could make it this far? I know for damn sure that I didn’t think that I could make it for 18 days straight. I honestly think that I am in for a treat since I am sticking to this. I really don’t think that I have that much of a noticeable physical change…well outter change. Like, yeh O lost some inches but it depends on how I stand, when I measure and yadda yadda yadda. My weight has gone down from 232 to 227.5 and that is good. But I honestly think that I still look the same. I know that I have 12 more days before I take my next pics, but a lot can and cannot happen in 12 days. I am just afraid that I will have done all of this hard work just to get the pics and look the same. Am I expecting to be a size 6 in a month? No, but I am looking for my stomach not to stick out as much as it did before I started.

I wish the internal changes could show. Like, how I actually like working out now, or how I understand the importance of stretching and ab control and am working to be better at it. How jumping jacks with these huge ass breasts don’t give me a black eye and a heart attack like they use to. Or how I consider each workout my own personal challenge that I can accomplish, and when it is complete, I am very proud of myself. This is what I wished showed in my before and After pics.

Well, I didn’t wake up and workout like I thought that I would. I went to bed TOO late after the movie screening and exercise that I really needed to stay my butt in bed for the entire day. I brought my lunch of chicken and broccoli to work…and yummm! I walked to get lunch with my co-worker and it was torture to stand in the buffet doorway and smell all of the wonderful foods that I use to partake in oh so long ago. It was amazing, though, to see the different combinations of food on people’s plates. The slimmer people were piling the salad and vegetables high and cutting the fish filets in half ( I have always wondered who in the hell does that!). While the more Boss Hog crowd was slamming three scoops of Mac & Cheese into containers that were big enough to feed those children on late night TV. I never once saw the Boss Hog crowd find their way to the vegetable table unless to drip dressing over a few chicken wings, and though exaggerated…..its not by much. I had survived the temptation ( with the help of leaving my debit card in the office) and I ate my healthy lunch and drank my water. Around the afternoon I started craving a soda….I fought the urge so hard that it wasnt even funny. My body wanted that beverage BAD!!!! But I wasnt ready to put on empty calories. So I went and got a snickers…..lol.But, I came home, watched When in Rome with one of my personal assistants/mentee and then I dreaded working out. I mean…it hit me that today was Yoga day! Yes, a damn Yoga day!!! I was procrastinating so much that I even played the disc on fast forward for her with my own fat girl commentary as if I were at the Hamburger Olympics! It was soooo hard for me to get up to take her home because I knew I had to workout when I returned.

Once back in the house, I knew that this was going to be the hardest 1.5 hours in my life. I mean really…. did Yoga really have to be this long?  It really was the 1.5 hour time frame that was throwing me off. In the car I had joked that I would turn the radio on in order to make it through….well…thats what I did. I turned on my favorite radio stations, WKYS 93.9 and I jammed out to Daija Perez with my back to the TV as he called out the poses. I was even tempted to tape the TV screen to cover the timer but just didnt look in that direction. There were times when I would glance at the screen but would block the timer corner with my hand just so I could see what move was next. It was not as bad as usual. Knowing the time ACTUALLY messes up my mental capacity to tell myself I can get through it. I have no clue why…. but it does. I made it through the first hour and then…by honest accident….I saw that I only had 34 minutes left. It was then that I was proud of myself.  It really did help to do downward dog to Keri Hilson’s Breaking Point or Warrior Pose to Jazmine Sullivan’s Count to 10. But nothing beats doing Tree to Michael Jackson’s Liberian Girl!!!!!! I was trying to stay still but my neck had to move in a snake-like fashion to feel the groove…and I still kept my balance! lol.  I learned that maybe I am missing out on the quietness of traditional Yoga, but maybe traditional Yoga isn’t for everyone. Maybe people need Country Yoga with Taylor Swift sending subliminal messages to Kanye in the background through twanged out mantras (Yummmmmmm). Or Rap Yoga with Gucci man teaching the class telling everyone to find their inner Buuuuuuuuur! I would prefer R&B/Neo-Soul Yoga…it connects well with my inner balance. Maybe I need to do it to instrumentals to take away the words and focus on the point of traditional Yoga….but this is what works for me to get the exercise done. And it was successful! I made it through the ENTIRE P90X Yoga X video for the first time EVER!!! The only time I stopped was on moves that I could not do; crane and side hold thingy with only one arm and one leg touching the floor.

So, it can be done. I will keep experimenting with this….especially since next week is my first recovery week and I saw Yoga twice….lol. But it felt good to accomplish something that I once hated tremendously and now I just dislike. lol.

SIncerely,

~*My Mother’s Daughter*~

P90X Journey: Day 15

In P90X Journey on 2 November 2010 at 9:58 am

 

I know that I said that I would workout this morning when I woke up…. and I said this at 2am in the blog when I had to wake up at 6am….and yeh….it didnt happen. But, staying true to my word, I worked out for 2 hours when I got home.

I woke up this morning and rushed to work without breakfast. I almost stopped and made some eggs and then decided against it due to time. BAD MOVE! Because when I got to work I was stuck in my office all day because I didn’t have my building badge and needed an escort. I also sucked butt and ate free mini snickers all day. I also think that I had a few Reese’s cups. It was there. Towards the end of the day my body was craving more sugar and so I got an orange ade-ish soda from the vending machine. Again, I prefaced with the fact that I sucked, so dont judge me. lol.  But good thing is that I did take my lunch, so I had my two small fajitas and that was it for lunch.

When I got off work I went to the grocery store and got a few more staples to assist me in making my meals. I had a drumstick off of my roasted chicken for dinner. It wasnt big at all, but it was enough to keep me from passing out. I was proud that I stopped eating because I felt myself about to over indulge and I stopped. Go Me!

Tonight I decided that I would switch to the Classic routines, just for a switch in order to my brain. I also wanted to do 2 hours of workouts a day to speed up my results. if I can lose 2 inches in 2 weeks with only 1 hour, I wanted that to only get better. I also wanted my fitness to improve. So I did the Chest and Back tonight with the Ab Ripper X . That totaled to an hour and sixteen minutes. Then I took a ten minute break and found a P90X support group on Sparkpeople.com and then I continued with Sean T’s Hip Hop Abs: Fat Burning Cardio. WOW!!! I remember when I first bought this thing, I had to stay low with Tanya because I was so out of shape. I would use an inhaler in the middle of workouts, constant breaks….but not tonight!!!! I was doing the high impact exercise format and loving every bit of it.

The only downfall is the fact that my Right hip socket and lower back side hurt. It flares up in stretches, bending flat back at the waist, and kicking/jumping….so basically when I move…lol. It doesn’t hurt so much when I have finished stretching but the initial stretch does hurt the most as well as jumping.But it is not unbearable, I figure if I can get my abs tighter it can help support those muscles that I have been using improperly for the past 15 years.  I also got side cramps during Hip Hop Abs because I had drunk water after the P90X workout…oh boy did that hurt! Sitting here writing this my back and shoulder blades are twitching with mini spasms. I was proud of the push-ups…even though I did them on my knees… I did them. I will build up to a full push-up. Tony Horton said, “Rome wasnt born in a day, so neither will your body”. I like that. It is a process that I am finding ways to stay engaged.And even though I am wheezing because of this phelm that I keep attempting to cough from my lungs ( sorry for the TMI) I keep it moving….. I felt unstoppable. I made up my mind and I did it!!!

My P90X workout went as follows: (All Push-ups were on knees & pull-ups done with Heavy Band)

Standard Push-ups:  15 (BURN)

Wide Front Pull-up:  24

Military Push-ups:  16 (BURN and at a faster speed)

Reverse Grip Chin-ups:  24

Wide Fly Push-ups:  15 (Stopped at 10 with a burn))

Closed Grip Overhead Pull-ups: 30 (seated)

Decline Push-ups: 15 (on knees)

Heavy Pants: 20 ( With Medium bands and a loop)

Diamond Push-ups: 13 ( Goal was 15 but left wrist on palm side began to hurt)

Lawnmower: 20 each side ( medium bands)

Dive Bomber Push-ups: 6 (confused on form….)

Back Flys:  20 ( medium Band)

Standard Push-ups Rnd 2:  25 (Shakey arms)

Wide Front Pull-up Rnd 2:  24

Military Push-ups Rnd 2:  20 ( first pause at 12 with both a burn and a shake)

Reverse Grip Chin-ups Rnd 2: 30

Wide Fly Push-ups Rnd 2: 20 ( BURN!)

Closed Grip Overhead Pull-ups Rnd 2: 30 ( in lunge forward )

Decline Push-ups Rnd 2: 15 (on knees)

Heavy Pants Rnd 2: 20 ( With Medium bands and a loop)

Diamond Push-ups: 16 ( Didnt go all the way down & left wrist on palm side began to hurt)

Lawnmower Rnd: 20 each side ( medium bands)

Dive Bomber Push-ups Rnd 2: 8 ( switched feet because knee locked and scared me. Pushing back hurt right hip)

Back Flys Rnd 2:  20 ( medium Band)

Ab Ripper X: I did 25 of each set with minor problems, but I am getting too sleepy to type. lol. I have it written down for me. But at least I finished them all. I will get up in the morning and do Hip Hop Abs before I head out to vote and then off to work. I am proud of myself!!! I hope that you are getting use to changing yourself as well. God bless!

Sincerely,

~*My Mother’s Daughter*~

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